Witness - [77]

He felt better as soon as they got off the train and were walking down Piccadilly ramp into town. The place hadn’t changed. Like he’d never been away. It was raining, a fine drizzle. A tram hooted. He’d have to steer clear of Midge, if Midge wasn’t locked up, avoid Hulme way but there were other places he could try. He wondered if Russell was still caretaking at the flats.

Once he got himself sorted out he could maybe try and find his mam, see how she was doing. She might have somewhere he could stay. A nice house with a conservatory and fish in a pond and big leather sofas.

First things first and that meant something to help him sleep and then somewhere to kip. He bought a bottle of White Lightning at the mini-market and some rolling tobacco. There used to be a place down the other side of Victoria Station, under the bridge, that he’d used a couple of times, in between a dumpster and the wall. Arranged right you could open the lid of the dumpster and prop it against the wall, make a roof to keep the rain off. Yeah, he’d try there – he’d a good feeling about it.

He walked down Market Street, Bess at his side. The African guys were still selling umbrellas and the old guy who did rock ’n’ roll under a fishing tent was belting it out. Zak bought a sausage barm from the cart at the bottom of the hill. ‘’Ere, have one for the dog,’ the woman said, ‘on the house.’

‘Ta,’ he said.

‘Ey, I’m sick of this bloody rain,’ she said, handing him his change. ‘Drives you mad.’

Zak checked the sausage wasn’t too hot and gave it to Bess. Then took a bite of his own and set off along Corporation Street where the Ferris wheel was turning. The white framework and the lights blurry in the misty rain.

A woman stopped to make a fuss of Bess and a bit further on Zak could see the emo kids in little groups hanging in the rain outside Urbis. Home, thought Zak, smiling. How could he ever live anywhere else?

Jeri came for Nana’s funeral. Cheryl didn’t ask him to, he just said when is it and I’ll come up. He couldn’t come for the whole nine nights but he would come on the eve of the final ceremony and stay a few days.

She hadn’t told him about the pregnancy yet but she knew she’d have to. She’d do it after the service, when it was all over. She didn’t want it interfering with giving Nana her send-off.

He arrived into chaos: people crammed into the sitting room, others clattering in the kitchen, clearing up and serving food, Milo writhing in her arms, on a crying jag.

Cheryl’s heart jumped at the sight of him. He made his way through the crowd and kissed her, touched Milo’s cheek. The gesture brought an image of Nana, her palms stroking Milo’s face, singing his name as Cheryl swung him. Cheryl had to blink hard and rein in her tears.

They were barely alone that first night. Not until the early hours when the last of the tipsy mourners had left.

‘You look tired,’ Jeri said when he came in from the shower, a towel round his waist and his chest, his skin a golden caramel colour, dotted with droplets of water.

‘Mega.’ She kissed him. His lips were soft, tentative. His arms went round her and she closed her eyes, leaned into him, kissed his neck. His skin was smooth and warm and she felt the bump of his pulse through her lips.

‘You want to sleep?’ he murmured.

‘In a little while.’ She raised her face and looked at him. The swirl of desire washed through her spine and her limbs and deep inside her. She felt weak.

He nodded and led her to the bed.

Vinia was at the funeral. Cheryl was glad she’d come even though the friendship was in tatters. Nana had been like a grandmother to Vinia, who’d not known her own, both of them dying when she was still small. Nana regularly fed and sheltered Vinia when Cheryl brought her back from school. Times in Vinia’s own home were always stormy and Nana’s was a refuge of sorts.

Cheryl felt spacey all day, reeling between hot tears and a cold, shattered, numb sensation. Jeri wore a beautiful black suit made of fine, soft wool and a white shirt. He looked wonderful, Cheryl thought, like a model himself in a glossy magazine, advertising a watch or men’s fragrance. When they first arrived at the church she could sense the ripple of interest from the congregation. She could imagine the gossip.

At the cemetery, Vinia came up to them. Cheryl’s heart sank. Not now, she thought.

‘Jeri,’ Vinia greeted him. ‘Hi, Milo.’ Milo grunted. He’d got a cold and he was grumpy with it. Vinia’s eyes were red, her nose puffy. She’d been crying. ‘Cheryl, I am sorry,’ Vinia said.

‘Thanks.’ Cheryl tried to smile, moved to walk away but Vinia put her hand out, touched Cheryl’s arm. ‘You were right.’ Vinia lowered her voice, glanced at Jeri.

About what? Had Vinia found out Cheryl had testified? Cheryl’s belly churned, her pulse rate rose. Instinctively she drew away from Jeri, turned her back to him, blocking his view of Vinia.

‘I’ve written to him,’ Vinia said. ‘It’s over. You happy now?’

Cheryl shrugged. ‘’Spose.’

Vinia’s bravado faltered. Her eyes grew wet. ‘I miss you, girl.’ She looked ashamed.