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When this is realized

the desire for security simply vanishes.

To accept insecurity is to become free of it.

Uncertainty will stay in the mind

because that is its nature.

Don’t worry about it

because that will add fuel to it.

Just let the mind be, where it is,

and you go into meditation.

You are not the mind

so where is the problem of the mind?

Leave the darkness where it is

and just light your lamp.

Are you going to think carefully and then surrender?

O mad one! Surrender is a leap outside thought.

Either jump or don’t jump

but for God’s sake don’t ponder over it!

134. Love.

Theism is another name for infinite hope.

It is patience,

it is waiting,

it is trust in leela,

in the play of life,

and therefore with theism complaining cannot be.

Theism is acceptance,

it is surrender –

acceptance of what is beyond the self

and surrender to the source of the self.

In 1914 a fire broke out in

Thomas Edison’s laboratory.

Machinery worth millions

and all the papers pertaining to his lifelong research

were burnt to ashes.

Hearing of this tragedy his son Charles

came looking for him

and he found him standing by the side

enjoying the sight of the leaping flames.

On seeing Charles, Edison said to him: Where is your mother?

Go and find her and bring her here quickly;

such a sight she will never see again!

The next day, walking amidst the ashes

of his hopes and dreams,

the 67 year-old inventor said:

What benefit there is in destruction!

All our mistakes have been burnt to ashes, thank God!

Now we can begin afresh, all over again!

God’s grace is endless.

We just need the eyes to see it.

135. Love.

Wittgenstein has said somewhere:

Of that which one cannot speak,

one should remain silent.

Oh, if only this advice was heeded

there would be no useless arguments about truth!

That-which-is cannot be spoken of.

Whatever is said in words is not,

cannot be,

that-which-is.

Truth is beyond words,

only silence is related to truth.

But silence is very difficult;

the mind wants to speak even of that

which is beyond words.

Really, the mind is the only barrier to silence.

Silence belongs to the state of no-mind.

A preacher came to address some small children.

Before beginning he put a question to them:

If you were asked to address a gathering

of such intelligent boys and girls

who expect a good lecture from you,

and if you had nothing to speak on,

what would you say?

A small child replied: I would keep quiet.

I would keep quiet.

This child-like simplicity is needed to experiment with silence.

136. Love.

Sannyas is a pilgrimage to Mt. Everest –

naturally there are difficulties on the way.

But the fruits of determination are sweet too,

so bear everything calmly and joyously

but don’t give up your commitment.

Serve your mother even more than before –

sannyas is not a running away from responsibility.

Your family is not to be given up,

rather you have to make the whole world your family.

Encourage your mother to take sannyas too.

Tell her: You have seen enough of the world,

now raise your eyes towards God.

But make sure she is caused no trouble on your account.

This doesn’t mean giving in or compromising –

sannyas knows no compromise.

Strong, bold and resolute is the soul of sannyas.

137. Love.

Love does not discriminate

even in dreams,

and in that love which is prayer too,

there are no distinctions at all.

Now I am no more.

The word I is simply a convenience

and as such causes many difficulties.

When the clouds of the I disappear

nothing remains but love –

love without cause,

unconditional love.

Here I stand in the marketplace:

who is ready to come and take it from me?

Kabir stands in the marketplace, torch in hand.

If you are ready to burn your house down, come with me.

138. Love.

Ah, if the veena were outside you could hear its music,

but it is inside

and we do not hear it.

But we can become one with it.

And how much is music worth that ends with listening?

Ultimately the musician, the veena, the music,

the listener

are not separate.

Look inside,

go within,

and see who is waiting there for you.

139. Love.

The springs of meditation are close at hand

but the layers of suppressed sex work like rocks.

The repression of sex has choked your life with anger,

its smoke pervades your whole personality.

When you were meditating in front of me the other day

I saw all this very clearly,

but I could also see that your will is very strong too,

your thirst for God is also strong

and you are working hard,

so there is no need to be disheartened.

Difficulties are there,

blocks are there,

but they will disintegrate

because the breaker is not yet broken.

Meditate totally and soon the springs will be reached.

But you have to put your whole being at stake –

nothing less will do.

Hold back a bit and you will miss.

Time is short so gather all your strength;

whilst the opportunity is here

your effort must be total.

It is difficult to say whether you will have such an opportunity

in another life, so everything must be finished in this one.

If the gates don’t open this time

you will have to start from the very beginning next time –

and then it is far from sure that I will be with you.

In your last life you worked for it