Desperate Measures - [2]

The clerk was calling for order. Adele’s eyes flew across the courtroom to the public gallery where he sat, Dr Halliwell, and she saw relief in the twitch of his mouth, then he looked straight at her, some sort of sick triumph in his eyes.

Accidental death. She staggered and felt Howard grab her, heard him shout, ‘Travesty, a bloody travesty!’

Adele bit down hard on her tongue, determined not to weep. She could bawl her eyes out later, in private, but in public she would not give them that satisfaction.

She wondered again how it would’ve been if Marcie had been some rich white kid instead of a poor black girl. If Marcie had been the GP’s daughter or the daughter of the coroner sat up there in his fancy carved chair. Would it have been accidental death then?

People were filing out. She turned to Howard; his eyes burned with outrage.

‘The papers will be outside,’ she said, ‘the telly.’ Marcie’s inquest had attracted plenty of media attention already. Adele’s belief that Dr Halliwell had treated Marcie wrongly and that medical neglect had led to her death made for a human interest story. It had attracted sharks too. Legal firms (at least that’s what they called themselves) had hounded her, touting for business, eager to bring suits against the GP. It wasn’t money she was interested in, it was recognition, acknowledgment, apology. It was making people see that doctors should listen to their patients, to family and not play God. She didn’t want her efforts to be tainted with the smell of chasing money, no matter how hard up they were. And times were hard. Harder than they’d ever been.

‘It doesn’t stop here,’ she said to Howard. ‘We carry on.’

He gave a shake of his head. She saw the muscles in his face move, his jaw set tight, too angry to speak. He had been with Adele every step of the way even though Marcie wasn’t his by birth. He’d moved in six years back and come to love Adele’s daughter as his own. He had been at Adele’s side day and night. They’d taken out a loan recently so he could buy a decent suit to wear to the court, and smart shoes. This morning he’d shaved his face and oiled his hair and put on a clean shirt with the suit and she was so proud of him, proud and thankful. He was a fine-looking man, a good man, skin the colour of dark chocolate, almond eyes, a slow smile which still made her stomach turn even after all these years. Not that there had been anything to smile about in these last months.

She put her hand on his shoulder. ‘Come on.’

Their appearance outside was stage managed by someone from the court press office. All the main players, the doctor and herself, had to be ready and in place. Adele would be able to speak first, if she wished, then Dr Halliwell. She did wish.

The scrum of photographers and reporters hummed and surged like a swarm of bees.

Adele felt a moment’s dizziness and reached for Howard’s arm. A microphone was thrust into her face. ‘Mrs Young how do you feel about today’s verdict?’

‘Devastated,’ she said with a crack in her voice but she reined in her nerves and spoke louder. ‘We are not giving up. We will keep fighting for justice for Marcie until we win.’

‘You’re not satisfied with the jury’s verdict?’

‘Satisfied?’ Howard shouted, ‘This isn’t justice, this is a mockery.’

Don’t. ‘Wait!’ She spoke over Howard, squeezing his hand to silence him. If he lost his temper here who knew what he might say or do and then they’d be labelled troublemakers, lowlife scum, the same as Marcie had been by the worst of gutter press.

She turned back to face the cameras. ‘We’ll get an independent review for Marcie and if that doesn’t work we’ll go to the ombudsman. These professionals need to start listening to us, to the families. And we need to stand up for ourselves and for the ones that are vulnerable, like Marcie, because no-one listens to them. We still believe that her care fell well short of what was required. We are especially concerned that our wishes were ignored, our concerns dismissed by her GP and we believe that led directly to her death. If we had been listened to, Marcie would still be with us today.’

Inside her something broke. She felt tears in her throat, and pain in her chest. She fought to breathe. At some signal, a final round of photographs was captured before Adele and Howard were edged away and Dr Halliwell took centre stage. He looked sober, dignified, with his greying hair and his smart camel coat. Silver spoon, that’s what her mother would’ve said, nursed on a silver spoon.

Dr Halliwell made all the right noises; Relieved… very sad case of Marcie Young… sanity prevailed. As though Adele with her quest was insane, mental, off the wall.

She watched him talk, the man who had been her family GP all her life, who had seen her through her pregnancy and given Marcie her first jabs, the man who prescribed anti-depressants when Adele went to him in tears, at her wit’s end with her daughter’s antics. The man who, in the last prescriptions he had written for Marcie Young, signed her death warrant as far as Adele was concerned.